Goals and reflections...

With just 2 hours of PC1432 lecture in the afternoon I had a lot of time to settle other stuff. Got down to filling up the goal setting sheet Alina prepared for us last cell. Thought about how I've been changing mostly since my JC days, personality, strengths and weaknesses etc... I guess a good place to start thinking of where to move towards is to look at where you've come from and where you're at...

Some abstractions from personality profiling:

"It is not easy for the INTJ to express their internal images, insights, and abstractions. The internal form of the INTJ's thoughts and concepts is highly individualized, and is not readily translatable into a form that others will understand. However, the INTJ is driven to translate their ideas into a plan or system that is usually readily explainable, rather than to do a direct translation of their thoughts. They usually don't see the value of a direct translation, and will also have difficulty expressing their ideas, which are non-linear."
Yup, excuse me if I have trouble explaining what I'm thinking at times; sometimes it really is quite a task for me to try and explain whats in my mind...

"...observer, values solitude, perfectionist, detached, private... does not talk about feelings, hard to impress, analytical, likes esoteric things..."
My tendency to appear aloof and apart from others as well as some degree of self-confidence generally causes people to think I'm some arrogant guy but I really ain't. Perfectionist; a great blessing and a great curse. Makes for high standards, but also makes it hard for one to settle for even just a little less. Went down to Art Friend again today( considering the number of times I've been there in the last few months I'm pretty sure all the counter staff recognise me by now) to get something that would provide a gloss finish since the lacquer I had lying around since '07 was more of a matte finishing that wasn't what I wanted. Granted the dimensions of what I was using it for was rather small and probably nobody would actually notice the difference, but to me it was a "vital minor detail" much as it sounds oxymoronic. Does not talk about feelings; probably my greatest of pitfalls. I've always felt communication is terribly important, but it seems I'm equally terrible at it. Kills especially when it comes to relationships. At home little is ever said and with friends it's often so too. Even she once said "bearing all your stoic silence and reserved nature". Regrettably so.

"INTJs live much of their lives inside their own heads. They constantly scan their environment for new ideas and theories which they can turn into plans and structures. Sometimes, what they see and understand intuitively within themselves is more pure and "perfect" than the reality of a close personal relationship. INTJs may have a problem reconciling their reality with their fantasy."
Being an observer, analytical, idealist/perfectionist, I guess such a conclusion is hard to escape from...

"INTJs are not naturally in tune with their own feelings, or with what other people are feeling."
Pretty sure I'm in tune with mine, but I know I definitely can be rather obvious and insensitive to others at times and I really don't mean to. On my last BOS duty when my RSM spent some time talking to me about my time in 6SIR, how I had been doing and about my plans post ORD even he told me to be careful cause there were times I seem harsh on people, cut them down or am insensitive even though I don't realise it and may not mean it. Sometimes I'm more sensitive and pick up stuff people don't, but I guess it's really a concious effort and something I have to keep working at.

"Don't Get Isolated"
I guess that can be a great pitfall for me as well. Being independent really isn't a great thing; all too easy to just end up doing everything on my own.